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  Startled, Clay let it fall. At the same instant, he moved to get away from it. He shot about three feet to one side and into the air. And stayed suspended there, terrified.

  Slowly, the terror in his eyes was replaced by understanding. He looked around his bedroom at Rachel, at Doro, and, finally, at Mary. Mary apparently released him then from his paralysis, because he began to move his arms and legs now like a human spider hanging in mid-air from an invisible web. Slowly, deliberately, Clay lowered himself to the bed. Then he drifted upward again, apparently finding it an easy thing to do. He looked at Mary, spoke apparently in answer to some thought she had projected to him.

  “Are you kidding? I can fly! This is good enough for me.”

  “You’re not a member of the pattern any more,” she said. She seemed saddened, subdued.

  “That means I’m free to go, doesn’t it?”

  “Yes. If you want to.”

  “And I won’t be getting any more mental interference?”

  “No. You can’t pull it in any more. You’re not even an out-of-control telepath. You’re not a telepath at all.”

  “Lady, you read my mind. You’ll see that’s no tragedy to me. All that so-called power ever brought me was grief. Now that I’m free of it, I think I’ll go back to Arizona—raise myself a few cows, maybe a few kids.”

  “Good luck,” said Mary softly.

  He drifted close to her, grinned at her. “You wouldn’t believe how easy this is.” He lifted her clear of the floor, brought her up to eye level with him. She gazed at him, unafraid. “What I’ve got is better than what you’ve got,” he joked.

  She smiled at him finally. “No it isn’t, man. But I’m glad you think it is. Put me down.”

  He lowered both her and himself to the floor as though he had been doing it all his life. Then he looked at Doro. “Is this something brand-new, or have you seen it before?”

  “Psychokinesis,” said Doro. “I’ve seen it before. Seen it several times in your father’s family, in fact, although I’ve never seen it come about this smoothly before.”

  “You call that transition smooth?” said Mary.

  “Well, with the heart problem, no, I guess not. But it could have been worse. Believe me, this room could be a shambles, with everyone in it injured or dead. I’ve seen it happen.”

  “My kind throw things,” guessed Clay.

  “They throw everything,” said Doro. “Including some things that are nailed down securely. Instead of doing that, I think you might have turned your ability inward a little and caused your own heart to stop.”

  Clay shook himself. “I could have. I didn’t know what I was doing, most of the time.”

  “A psychokinetic always has a good chance of killing himself before he learns to control his ability.”

  “That may be the way it was,” said Mary. “But it won’t be that way any more.”

  Doro heard the determination in her voice and sighed to himself. She had just shared a good portion of Clay’s agony as she worked to keep him alive, and immediately she was committing herself to do it again. She had found her work. She was some sort of mental queen bee, gathering her workers to her instead of giving birth to them. She would be totally dedicated, and difficult to reason with or limit. Difficult, or perhaps impossible.

  Christine Hanson came through in an ordinary transition, perhaps a little easier than most. She made more noise than either of the men because pain, even slight pain, terrified her. She had had a harder time than the others during the pretransition period, too. Finally, hoarse but otherwise unhurt, Christine completed her transition. She remained a telepath, like her brother. It was possible that one or both of them might learn to heal, and it was possible that they, Rachel, and Mary might be very long-lived.

  Whatever potential Jamie and Christine had, they accepted their places in the pattern easily. They were Mary’s first grateful pattern members. And their membership brought an unexpected benefit that Jesse accidentally discovered. Now all the members could move farther from Mary without discomfort. Suddenly, more people meant more freedom.

  Doro watched and worried silently. The day after Christine’s transition, Mary began pulling in more of her cousins. And Ada, who knew a few of her relatives, began trying to reach them in Washington. Doro could have helped. He knew the locations of all his important latent families. But as far as he was concerned, things were moving too quickly even without his help. He said nothing.

  He had decided to give Mary two years to make what she could of her people. That was enough time for her to begin building the society she envisioned—what she was already calling a Patternist society. But two years should still leave Doro time to cut his losses—if it became necessary—without sacrificing too large a percentage of his breeding stock.

  He had admitted to himself that he didn’t want to kill Mary. She was easily controllable in most matters, because she loved him; and she was a success. Or a partial success. She was giving him a united people, a group finally recognizable as the seeds of the race he had been working to create. They were a people who belonged to him, since Mary belonged to him. But they were not a people he could be part of. As Mary’s pattern brought them together, it shut him out. Together, the “Patternists” were growing into something that he could observe, hamper, or destroy but not something he could join. They were his goal, half accomplished. He watched them with carefully concealed emotions of suspicion and envy.

  PART THREE

  Chapter Nine

  EMMA

  Emma was at the typewriter in her dining room when Doro arrived. He had not called to say he was coming, but at least when he walked in without knocking, he was wearing a body she had seen him in before: the body of a small man, blackhaired, green-eyed, like Mary. But the hair was straight and this body was white. He threw himself down on Emma’s sofa and waited silently until she finished the page that she was working on.

  “What is it?” he asked her when she got up. “Another book?”

  She nodded. She was young. She was young most of the time now, because he was around so much. “I’ve discovered that I like writing,” she said. “I should have tried it years earlier than I did.” She sat down in a chair, because he was sprawled over the length of the sofa. He lay there frowning.

  “What’s the matter?” she asked.

  “Mary’s the matter.”

  Emma grimaced. “I’m not surprised. What’s she done?”

  “Nothing yet. It’s what she’s going to do after I talk to her. I’m going to put on the brakes, Em. The Patternist section of Forsyth is as big as a small town already. She has enough people.”

  “If you ask me, she had enough two years ago. But now that you’re ready to stop her, what are you going to do with all those actives—all those Patternists—when she’s not around any more to maintain the Pattern?”

  “I’m not out to kill Mary, Em. The Pattern will still be there.”

  “Will it?”

  He hesitated. “You think she’ll make me kill her?”

  “Yes. And if you’re realistic about it, you’ll think so too.”

  He sighed, sat up. “Yes. I don’t expect to salvage many of her people, either. Most of them were animals before she found them. Without her, they’ll revert.”

  “Animals … with such power, though.”

  “I’ll have to destroy the worst of them.”

  Emma winced.

  “I thought you’d be more concerned about Mary.”

  “I was concerned about her. But it’s too late for her now. You helped her turn herself into something too dangerous to live.”

  He stared at her.

  “She’s got too much power, Doro. She terrifies me. She’s doing exactly what you always said you wanted to do. But she’s doing it, not you. All those people, those fifteen hundred people in the section, are hers, not yours.”

  “But she’s mine.”

  “You wouldn’t be thinking about killing her if you believed that was
enough.”

  “Em… .” He got up and went to sit on the arm of her chair. “What are you afraid of?”

  “Your Mary.” She leaned against him. “Your ruthless, egotistical, power-hungry little Mary.”

  “Your grandchild.”

  “Your creation! Fifteen hundred actives in two years. They bring each other through on an assembly line. And how many conscripted servants—ordinary people unfortunate enough to be taken over by those actives. People forced now to be servants in their own houses. Servants and worse!”

  Her outburst seemed to startle him. He looked down at her silently.

  “You’re not in control,” she said more softly. “You’ve let them run wild. How many years do you think it will take at this rate for them to take over the city? How long before they begin tampering with the state and federal government?”

  “They’re very provincial people, Em. They honestly don’t care what’s happening in Washington or Sacramento or anywhere else as long as they can prevent it from hurting them. They pay attention to what’s going on, but they don’t influence it very often.”

  “I wonder how long that will last.”

  “Quite a while, even if the Pattern survives. They honestly don’t want the burden of running a whole country full of people. Not when those people can run themselves reasonably well and the Patternists can reap the benefits of their labor.”

  “That, they have to have learned from you.”

  “Of course.”

  “You mentioned Washington and Sacramento. What about here in Forsyth?”

  “This is their home territory, Em. They’re interfering too much here to avoid being noticed by Forsyth city government, half asleep as it is. To avoid trouble, they took over the city about a year and a half ago.”

  Emma stared at him, aghast.

  “They’ve completely taken over the best section of town. They did it quietly, but still Mary thought it safest for them to control key mutes in city hall, in the police department, in—”

  “Mutes!”

  He looked annoyed, probably with himself. “It’s a convenient term. People without telepathic voices. Ordinary people.”

  “I know what it means, Doro. I knew the first time I heard Mary use it. It means nigger!”

  “Em—”

  “I tell you, you’re out of control, Doro. You’re not one of them. You’re not a telepath. And if you don’t think they look down on us nontelepaths, us niggers, the whole rest of humanity, you’re not paying attention.”

  “They don’t look down on me.”

  “They don’t look up to you, either. They used to. They used to respect you. Dammit, they used to love you, the originals. The ‘First Family.’ ” Her tone ridiculed the name that the original seven actives had adopted.

  “Obviously this has been bothering you for a long time,” said Doro. “Why haven’t you said anything about it before?”

  “It wasn’t necessary.”

  He frowned.

  “You knew.” Her tone became accusing. “I haven’t told you a single thing that you haven’t been aware of for at least as long as I have.”

  He moved uncomfortably. “Sometimes I wonder if you aren’t a little telepathic yourself.”

  “I don’t have to be. I know you. And I knew you’d reach a point when no matter how fascinated you were with what Mary was doing, no matter how much you loved the girl, she’d have to go. I just wish you’d made up your mind sooner.”

  “Back when she brought her first latents through, I decided to give her two years. I’d like to give her a good many more if she’ll cooperate.”

  “She won’t. How willing would you be to give up all that power?”

  “I’m not asking her to give up anything but this recruitment drive of hers. She’s got a good many of my best latents now. I don’t dare let her go on as she has been.”

  “You want the section to grow now by births only?”

  “By births, and through the five hundred or so children they’ve collected. Children who’ll eventually go through transition. Have you seen the private school they’ve taken over for the children?”

  “No. I keep away from the section as much as I can. I assume Mary knows how I feel about her already. I don’t want to keep reminding her until she decides to change my mind for me.”

  Doro started to say something, then stopped.

  “What is it?” asked Emma.

  For a moment, she thought he wasn’t going to answer. Then, “I mentioned you to her once. I said I didn’t want you bothered by any of her people. She gave me a strange look and said she’d already taken care of that. She said, ‘Don’t worry about her. Bitchy old woman that she is, she’s wearing my brand. If anybody even tries to read her, the first thing they’ll see is that she’s my private property.’ ”

  “Her what!”

  “She means you’re under her protection, Em. It might not sound like much, but, with it, none of the others are going to touch you. And, apparently, she isn’t interested in controlling you herself.”

  Emma shuddered. “How generous of her! She must feel awfully secure in her power. You trained her too well. She’s too much like you.”

  “Yes,” said Doro. “I know.”

  She looked at him sharply. “Did I hear pride in your voice?”

  Doro smiled faintly. “She’s shown me a lot, Em. She’s shown me something I’ve been trying to find out for most of my life.”

  “All I can see that she’s shown you is what you’d be like as a young woman. I recall warning you about underestimating young women.”

  “Not what I’d be like as a woman. I already know that. I’ve been a woman I-don’tknow-how-many times. No. What I’d be like as a complete entity. What I’d be like if I hadn’t died that first time—died before I was fully formed.”

  “Before you were …” Emma frowned. “I don’t understand. How do you know you weren’t fully formed when you died?”

  “I know. I’ve seen enough almost-Doros, enough near successes to know. I should be telepathic, like Mary. If I were, I would have created a pattern and fed off live hosts

  instead of killing. As it is, the only time I can feel mind-to-mind contact with another person is when I kill. She and I kill in very much the same way.”

  “That’s it?” said Emma. “That’s all you’ve been reaching for, for so long—someone who kills in the same way you do?”

  “All?” There was bitterness in his voice. “Does it seem such a small thing, Em, for me to want to know what I am—what I should have been?”

  “Not a small thing, no. Not a wise thing, either. Your curiosity—and your loneliness, I think—have driven you to make a mistake.”

  “Perhaps. I’ve made mistakes before.”

  “And survived them. I hope you survive this one. I can see now why you kept your purpose secret for so long.”

  “Yes.”

  “Does Mary know?”

  “Yes. I never told her, but she knows. She saw it herself after a while.”

  “No wonder you love her. No wonder she’s still alive. She’s you—the closest thing you’ve ever had to a true daughter.”

  “I never told her any of that, either.”

  “She knows. You can depend on it.” She paused for a moment. “Doro, is there any way she could … I mean, if she’s complete and you’re not, she might be able to …”

  “To take me?”

  Emma nodded.

  “No. If she could, she would never have lived past the morning of her transition. She tried to read me then. If she hadn’t, I would have ordered her to try as soon as I saw her. I wanted to look at her in the only way that would tell me whether she could possibly become a danger to me. I looked, and what I saw told me she couldn’t. She’s like a scaled-down model of me. I could have taken her then, and I can now.”

  “It’s been a long time since you’ve seen someone you thought could be dangerous. I hope your judgment is still as good as you think it is.”
r />   “It is. In my life, I’ve met only five people I considered potentially dangerous.”

  “And they all died young.”

  Doro shrugged.

  “I assume you’re not forgetting that Mary can increase her strength by robbing her people.”

  “No. It doesn’t make any difference. I watched her very carefully back when she took Rachel and Jess. I could have taken her then. In fact, the extra strength she had acquired made her seem a more attractive victim. Strength alone isn’t enough to beat me. And she has a weakness I don’t have. She doesn’t move. She has just that one body, and when it dies, she dies.” He thought about that and shook his head sadly. “And she will almost certainly die.”

  “When?”

  “When she—If she disobeys me. I’m going to tell her my decision when I go there today. No more latents. She’ll decide what she wants to do after that.”

  SETH

  Seth Dana came out the back door of Larkin House thinking about the assignment Mary had just given him. The same old thing. Recruit more seconds—more people to help latents through transition. Patternists liked the way their numbers were increasing. Expansion was exciting. It was their own kind growing up, coming of age at last. But seconding was hard work. You were mother, father, friend, and, if your charge needed it, lover to an erratic, frightened, dependent person. People volunteered to be seconds when they were shamed into it. They accepted it as their duty, but they evaded that duty as long as they could. It was Seth’s job to prompt them and then present them with sullen, frightened charges.

  He was a kind of matchmaker, sensing easily and accurately which seconds would be compatible with which latents. His worst mistake had been his first, his decision to second Clay. Mary had stopped him then. She had not had to stop him again. He had no more close relatives to warp his judgment.

  He got into his car, preoccupied, deciding which Patternists to draft this time. He started the car automatically, then froze, his hand poised halfway to the emergency brake. Someone had shoved the cold steel barrel of a gun against the base of his skull.